What are you doing?

What are you doing with your life? Are you having fun? Are you thinking that events and situations are happening to you?

Which scenario do you prefer? Which one feels better?

What are you not willing to have in your life? What are you willing to acknowledge and then let go?

For me, life has to be lived on my terms, not anyone else's. It is my life after all. If my life seems to be a mess, it is because I created that mess and it has something to offer me, something to give me. What is that? I may not know for days, weeks, or years after the situation has calmed down or resolved itself, but I know that it was always for me.

Like my separation from my husband. For ten years now, I have been wishing and desiring to have him leave. Last year, he did. I wanted it to happen and when the time was right, I finally let him go.

And now, I revel in my freedom.

I am also scared about the next step; financial independence. In my marriage, I let him tell me that I could not work full time. I let him tell me that I was unreliable in keeping a job, which was completely false, of course. I let him ruin our life financially. Together we created struggle and a lack consciousness.

Now, I get to change my mind about my job/career and how I want to money to come into my life. I get to choose my conditions. I get to choose my values and what is important to me and to me alone.

That is an awesome amount of power that I have!

So, what shall I do today?